Our Hearts in Haiti
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
New Blog Address
Christa has now moved her blog to www.christagibler.blogspot.com. Please follow her journey there!
Friday, June 7, 2013
RLA - This One is for You! : Christa
Chaldana & Milanda // Photo: Ashley Thayer |
Today Milanda was more precious
than ever and I was so thankful to the Lord that He has me here where my heart
explodes with joy! After we danced to some worship songs and I fed her, I
unfortunately had to leave earlier than usual. I had her little arms wrapped so
tight around my neck with her heart melting smiles and kisses on the cheek. As I
told her I had to go, she squeezed tighter and yelled, “nooooo, you stay here!
(in Creole).” Of course my heart sank. There is nothing I would rather do than
spend time with this child I love. I’ve nurtured her, fed her, held her in
times of sickness, prayed over her, danced and laughed with her, she’s even
brought me into her home.
Sisters |
Praying with my 2! |
I
just want to encourage the team, that this God who mightily showed up on this
mission trip for you is the same God in the States. The way you so expectantly
waited for the Lord to show up here in Haiti, live expectant for Him in LA. God
is here in Haiti moving, healing, redeeming, restoring, providing and always
faithful. That same God is there moving too. He is involved in each moment of
your life. His presence all around you is a promise, regardless of how you
‘feel’ or how aware of it you are. Free from many distractions, a lot of you
felt Him more near and experienced His presence, maybe even for the first time.
Keep fighting the things of this world that creep in, so that you will
experience Him in radical news ways. In all He does, He wants you. He wants you
to dig deeper into His heart. “You keep
him in perfect peace
whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.
Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock.”
Isaiah 26:3-4
Don’t
fall into the lies that the enemy wants you to believe. As you get back into your normal schedule,
the enemy will try to tell you that it’s all on you to DO something. Don’t do
anything but be with Him. Press in. Seek His face like you never have before
because He is longing to speak to you. If He wants you to ‘do’ anything, He
will lead you in His perfect peace. But the most beautiful thing He wants you
to gain from what He showed you in that week is Himself. “Now may the Lord of peace himself give you
peace at all times in every way. The Lord be with you all.” 2 Thessalonians 3:16
sleepin' babes. |
He
has started such a beautiful work in each one of you and He is not finished
yet. If He brings some of you back to Haiti, I will be here to welcome you with
open arms!! And if not, I know without a doubt He is using you in LA and across
the nations elsewhere. I am so thankful for the body of Christ. I will continue
to pray for you! Thank you for all your hard work, love, support and prayers.
And thank you for showing the love of Christ to these precious children. They
are blessed to have been embraced by each of you, as am I.
“[What, what would have become of me] had I not believed that I would see the Lord’s goodness in the land of the living! Wait and hope for and expect the Lord; be brave and of good courage and let your heart be stout and enduring. Yes, wait for and hope for and expect the Lord.” Psalm 27:13-14
Reality LA + Time Square NY |
Brothers! |
Sisters! |
Echline |
Dave! |
Praying for Chaldana's fever and cold. |
Rooftop reppin' LA in Haiti |
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Hurricane Sandy: Christa
Leaving Haiti after living here for
the summer was more painful than I thought it would be. I grew up in LA for 25
years of my life and all of a sudden it didn’t feel like home anymore. It was a
lot to process, but it’s as if the Lord laid me down on an operation table and
did surgery. He transplanted a slice of His heart for Haiti into mine, and I’ve
fallen in love with the culture, the scenery and most of all the people, whom
He also adores.
After a few weeks of processing, I
returned back to my new found home in Haiti this past October, to practically
walk straight into Hurricane Sandy. I’ll never be able to articulate what I saw
and the feelings I experienced, but I’ll walk you through 24 hours of it.
The clouds started rolling over the
island of Haiti and as the burning hot sun started to hide behind the thick,
dark clouds… we knew this was more than just some rain. We had gotten news that
a hurricane was supposed to hit Cuba, but it was clear it was headed for us as
well. A team was visiting and they wondered if they were even going to be able
to leave as scheduled.
That night, the team was sitting
around the living room in fellowship, playing games and watching a movie, but I
just sat it front of the window watching the rain pour down but be taken
violently sideways by the wind. My heart sank as I started to think of all the
teeth chattering in tents, literally across the street. Across the street! I
asked myself, “why am I sitting in a thick concrete house, dry, and those kids
are sleeping in mud.” Fighting back tears all night I went to bed and
petitioned to the Lord.
I could barely sleep, such a
mixture between the loud crashing water on tin roofs and an extremely heavy
heart. My bed is next to a broken window and my sheets were wet from rain
getting in and for the first time in Haiti, I was so cold. I can’t even imagine
how uncomfortable and cold these kids where as they had no way to dry off, but
to just sit and wait for the rain to stop. Every time I was woken up, I just lifted
up those kids and families to the Lord. I asked for protection and comfort. I
asked for the rain to stop. But after all that, I asked for the Lords will to
be done. And then the Lord spoke.
The Lord took me on a journey that
night as I lifted up the tent city, asking for the Lord’s will. He reminded me
of the ‘storm’ in my life that drove me to my knees. Without this storm I would
not have heard my Father’s voice. I would not have found the comfort that no
human can offer me. I would not have experienced the miracles of healing when I
thought my heart and my life was too broken to fix. He reminded me of that
storm. It may not have been a physical storm, but it caused me to reach out to
the only one who could save me from the drowning waves of my life.
After looking at this, He reminded me that He is so sovereign. It may not be the storm that He wants in our lives, but He uses the difficult things in this life to draw us near to Him. Who am I to say what these people need? It may not look like they have much, but they also don’t have masks to hide behind and money to stuff in a hole that only Jesus can fill. Jesus knows right where they are and He knows their deepest need, and that is Him. Period. He knows what it will take for someone to turn to Him and trust that He is faithful to fulfill all His promises. We get far too comfortable to even realize we need Jesus, and sometimes I think its almost better that this community has to be dependant on Him, they get to watch Him move. Watch Him provide. Watch Him heal. Watch Him show up in ways we don’t allow outside of our comforts. My prayer is to be dependent and desperate for the Lord. These people are, and I might go as far to say that they may experience Him in a way we don’t allow our lives to be a part of. Who knows how many prayers were answered that night, but I believe the Lord kept families completely dry and warm that rested in Him and clung to the provision of His wing. “How precious is your steadfast love, O God!
The children of mankind take refuge in the shadow of your wings.”
– Psalms 36:7
Lydel |
So
that morning I was unsure what we would find. The storm lasted a couple days
and we got news that 500 tents were destroyed. The visiting team graciously
agreed to help us go in and put some tents back together. We heard of a woman
who no longer had the ability to walk, who lost her tent in the hurricane and
really needed help. We grabbed Lydel, a 17 year old boy we have quickly grown
to love as he helps out at the feeding program and hangs out with us in the
streets. He has many brothers who also agreed to help. So the team and
essentially all of Lydel’s family took on this task to help a woman in
desperate need.
Clearly
I am no tent-building master, so I just followed the tugging on my heart to go
visit and be with the families after the storm as the team was fixing tents. I
weaved through the narrowest pathway between tents (only room for single file)
to find a huge muddy mess. The boys are somewhat clean… whoa - were the
Americans dirty!! Somehow I think the Haitians have the ability to float on
mud, where Americans… well, cannot. Knee deep in mud, the team is putting up
posts to frame the tent with the goal to make it better than it was. We heard
the conditions she lived in prior to the storm were one of the worst.
As
I walk through, I myself being American suddenly have lost sight of the Nike’s
on my feet and now only see rusty brown mess covering my shoe completely. I
carry on and walk through the plot to the other side greeting Lydel and his
brothers and they all surround me with hugs, beaming with smiles so full of
life. I loved watching the community come together to help this woman. I find a
flat spot to stand and within seconds I see kids from all directions pop out of
tents with wide eyes at the sight of me. I soon have my arms full of kids I’ve
had the honor to know through the feeding program. As I talk to them I see the
surrounding neighbors start crowding around to watch and I start making
conversations with them and laughing with them.
It’s
incredible to watch these people after hardship. They are so resilient as a
nation, but they rejoice in the Lord through all circumstances. It reminds me
of the scripture in Psalms 13:5 “But I have trusted in your steadfast love; my
heart shall rejoice in your salvation.” Those that do know Jesus in this
community are the ones who are literally singing praises to God for making a
way for them. They know their ultimate need is salvation and they are rejoicing
in their Savior. Its too often we forget that we have a Savior who has taken
the worst for us and given us life eternally. How often do we loose perspective
and just focus on our circumstances? Watching them snapped me right back to the
real reality of all we have in Jesus.
After
spending time with these families making sure they were ok, I decided to go
back and carefully made my way through the mud. Naturally Lydel started a mud
fight with me so I definitely looked like I ROLLED in the mud. As I weave
through tents people are popping out laughing at me asking me if I had fallen…
thanks Lydel.
I
made it out to the main street that runs through Siniace where often kids are
playing soccer and there are machann selling things from the baskets on their heads. I am about to turn the corner and a woman I have never met before greets
me. She had seen me coming up the road and gone into her tent to get something.
Once I walk past her she doesn’t say anything, but grabs my hands and starts
washing me with her only clean bucket of water. I look at her and just as I am
about to say, “its ok, save your water, I am fine…” a soft still voice just
told me, “let her.” A tear streams down my face as she starts washing all the
mud off of me and I’m overwhelmed by the service of a stranger.
As I stand there more humbled than
I’ve ever felt, I think of Jesus, lowering Himself. As it says in Philippians
2:6 “Who, being in the form of God, thought it not a thing to be grasped to be
equal with God” he wore the costume of a salve and served us, washing the
disciples’ feet. I was overwhelmed by the love of the Lord in this moment. I felt Him say,
“you are here to serve these people, but here they are serving you. I am here
serving you, I am washing you clean through this process.” I was reminded of
all He’s done for me and couldn’t help but stand in awe, in the middle of the
street, in a tent city, of how the Lord speaks.
He provides for our every need,
little or big. Immediate or long term. Spiritual or physical. He used this team
of people to BE the provision for the woman in need, no doubt she saw and heard
of God’s provision on this day. And He provided a small, simple act of service
towards me, but one that cost that woman her only bucket of clean water. How
much more do I want to pour out all that I have within me to love these people
with the abundant love the Lord has supplied me.
I sought the LORD, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed. This poor man cried, and the LORD heard him and saved him out of all his troubles.The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him, and delivers them.
- Psalm 34:4-7
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Update - Next Steps: Christa
I am writing this update to keep you posted on what is next in this journey to Haiti.
My heart is absolutely still in Haiti and particularly with very special kids that I've built relationships with both in the orphanage and in the surrounding community. I've had the honor of meeting the families of some of the kids at our feeding program, and I would love nothing more than to be given more opportunities to love and encourage them in a more consistent way.
I spent the last 3 months in Port-au-Prince teaching along side Rachel Harvey. The two of us had over 30 students Monday - Friday rotating between business classes and our skills & trade labs. Our vision was to teach the older children of the orphanage business concepts along with the trade they were learning so they can apply business skills and techniques to a potential business in these areas. Through much prayer, the kids hearts were completely softened and they went from discouragement and no dreams of the future, to seeing a future in their dream businesses that they proposed to the class at the end of the program. We saw so much potential prior to this program and now that they are more equipped, motivated and eager, they are most definitely going to be successes in Haiti, the next generation to change the country one kid at a time.
My main focus in teaching a trade was fostering a creative environment for the kids to create jewelry made of true materials from Haiti such as shells of the Caribbean beaches, broken glass, bottle caps, cans, tiles, etc. Recycling materials that are all around them, they were given the tools to make the most beautiful jewelry that is for sale, helping them provide for themselves upon graduation. Through much prayer, I have decided to come along side the Transition Program and launch the jewelry business. The biggest need is a job. Creating jobs in this country will help entire families survive so we hope that the Transition Program helps to do so in this city.
I've stepped out in faith feeling confident that this is where the Lord is leading me, that I have moved out of my apartment in LA and sold the rest of my belongings. I will be serving full time in Haiti and have committed to another 3 months, but with the intentions of staying longer. I will reevaluate in January when i am back in the states for a wedding.
“Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, Nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him.” 1 Corinthians 2:9
My heart is torn between the kids in the orphanage and the kids roaming the streets, but one way or another, my heart is in Haiti. I cannot wait to be back in the country with all my kids, but I can definitely use your support. The first way I can use your support is in prayer. I know that what I am committing to is a very challenging decision. I am aware of the obstacles I will face and it will certainly be difficult, but I know this is where I am supposed to be. Please pray for the following:
- Wisdom: It says in James 1:5 "if anyone lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him." I definitely need wisdom as I launch a business and guide these kids in learning to be hard workers with integrity.
- Discernment: I am surrounded by so much need constantly, but I know the Lord will give me discernment in who and how to help. I know I cannot help everyone and I am just called to love the person in front of me. I need Him to completely remove my understanding of "help" and give me His eyes to see.
- Love/Patience: Kids are always challenging to work with, but these kids are severely abused and neglected and need so much love. Sometimes they refuse my love but its just a sign I need more of Jesus' love for them, to pursue them with love through patience. A constant picture of Christ's love for us.
- Provision: I am blown away by the support I have received and I know the Lord always provides. I am still a few hundred dollars away from my monthly goal, and the transition program has decided we need an iPad for a number of different reasons. The online business I am starting will require photographs, photo editing, uploading to the internet site, and the ability to swipe a credit card for the gift shop purchases. The ipad has the ability to do all of these things with out having to buy 3 or 4 separate expensive devices. If you have an iPad you would like to donate, please contact me. Or if you feel led to financially support me for my rent, food, airfare, or other costs such as supplies for the program, please follow the link and it will already have my name in the subject box and be added to my Child Hope account for the listed purposes.
"I have called you back from the ends of the earth, saying, ‘You are my servant.’For I have chosen you and will not throw you away. Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand." Isaiah 41:9, 10
If you have any specific questions or need more information, please contact me! I cannot tell you all how blessed and encouraged I am by each one of you. I could not have followed the Lord's calling on my life without your support both prayerfully and financially. I am so incredibly thankful to each of you. I love you so much.
Thursday, September 20, 2012
A Brother's Love: Christa
In line for hand sanitizer before their meal! |
Every other day we commit to being
with these kids to love and serve them physically, emotionally, and
spiritually. We feed them beans and rice with a slice of meat, along with clean
water and vitamins. Emotionally these kids are often mistreated and uncared
for, so inviting them into our open arms and smothering them with kisses is not
a daily comfort they find in their own family. Then once playtime is over,
Ivens leads the kids in worship and a message about Jesus.
These kids are so desperate for love
and affection. As soon as they see you, their faces light up and they run
straight for you. I could have six children at my waist but I can only manage
to hold two or three at a time. I try to take turns but there are always a few
that the Lord blesses you with a special bond. Let me share about them.
family. |
One Monday I walked into the feeding
program and I saw a young boy rocking his baby sister back and forth to get her
to stop crying. He was doing everything he could to get her to stop screaming.
I walked by (as this is very common for the older siblings to take care of
their younger brothers and sisters), but this time was different. I sat in the
back and I watched him care for his little sister in a way that I’ve never seen
in the States. By now I had been consistently at the program every Monday,
Wednesday and Friday for over a month. As the little girl continues to scream,
I see him look around. He makes eye contact with me from afar and brings her
over. I know we have a language burier, but his eyes said everything, “Please
take good care of her, I just want to be a kid and play…”
Milanda & Dana singing and dancing |
I scooped her up and got her to stop
crying, and the boy wrapped his arms around my waist after he got to play for a
while and looked up at me with such thankfulness and appreciation. The most
beautiful smile I’ve ever seen. But I could tell he needed care and love too.
Who was looking after him? After all, he is still a kid. I asked him his name
and he said Stevenson, with that beautiful smile. He held on for at least five
minutes and I just knew he needed to feel that someone cared.
Everyday after Stevenson would walk
into the program with his other brothers, he would hand me his 2 year old
sister Dana. He would hold on to me for a while, but knowing his
sister was safe with me, he'd go play soccer. Every 10 minutes he’d come around and check on Dana. He
was such a faithful, loyal brother to her. As the days went on, Stevenson
trusted me more and more to leave her with me. He stopped checking on her
knowing I would take good care of her. I loved watching his trust build in me.
Once he felt he could trust me with
his sister and he knew how much I loved him, he started asking me everyday as
the leaders were kicking him out, “vin lakay mwen pou wè manman m” which means
come to my house to see/meet my mom. To maintain the trust and relationship
that I built with him, it was an honor to me that I could go meet his family.
Stevenson and his brothers led the way, and I walked to Siniace with them.
Like I’ve mentioned before, its never
safe for me to go by myself or even me and Ray together, so we took Chillup
with us to help translate and to have a Haitian adult who knows a lot of the
people there. As Stevenson brought us to his tent, Winsley and Geurson went to
go find their mom. As we wait in front of the tent, we saw some new and some
familiar little faces pop out from behind tents. In a small intersection of
pathways between tents, we loved on some babies just roaming free.
Suddenly a woman with a concerned but
shocked face comes around the corner. We look at her with an uncertain face and
she says, “Oh! Winsley told his mom that there were Americans at the tent
waiting to meet her, and she didn’t believe that could be true, so she sent me
to prove that they were lying… but you really are here! I’ll go get her!” Soon
after, their cautious and surprised mom turned the corner and invited us in.
I was introduced to Ivenitte, their
mother, and she took us inside. We walked into a square tent that was sectioned
off by sheets into three rooms. It smelled musty and there was nowhere to sit
but on a cement block in the corner. To fit all four adults, we lined up
against the edge and stood to talk with her. At the age of 31, she began to
share that Geurson was actually her 12 year old brother that she was taking
care of, as well as her 12 year old son Stevenson, her 10 year old son Winsley,
and her 2 year old Cheldana, (Dana for short). They were all in school until
their father left them and now they don’t have enough income to support all
three older boys to go to school and eat. We talked a little bit about how she
was trying to sell food on the side making plantains. But all the while, in the
back of my head I knew I couldn’t do anything. My stomach sank.
Friend Angelica, Dana, Stevenson, Geurson |
Overwhelmed by hopelessness and
devastation around me, I could easily get caught up in how much need surrounds
and how incapable I am of fixing it. But when we keep our eyes fixed on Jesus,
he takes that burden and shows us how to love the person in front of us.
Sometimes that is one person and sometimes that leads to a vision that serves
an entire tent city, but he knows these people's needs more than I do and he is
sovereign over their faith and what their walk with Him looks like.
I am
certain that these people are the richer. Being richer in faith is greater than
any earthly material and who am I to say what these people need. He should be
the one to show me out of His love for them, and not out of my own frantic,
overwhelmed flesh. That would lead to a quick fix that hurts later and I know
Jesus would want to heal the whole person, not just the current circumstance.
He is concerned for the eternal needs even more than their immediate needs, but
He does provide thru and thru.
I hugged Ivenitte, kissed her cheek and told her how much I love her kids. I am praying for a vision. My
heart is broken for these people and I can’t do one single good thing if Jesus
doesn’t show me. Join me in prayer as I desire to love these hurting people the
way Jesus would serve the broken.
"The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me,because the Lord has anointed meto bring good news to the poor;he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,to proclaim liberty to the captives,and the opening of the prison to those who are bound"
- Isaiah 61:1
God I look to You, I won’t be
overwhelmed
Give me vision to see things like You
do
God I look to You, You’re where my
help comes from
Give me wisdom; You know just what to
do
Monday, August 13, 2012
Streets: Christa
Christina, Tasha, me, Luciana, Mona
I was brought to tears the
other night during worship, overwhelmed by how much I love these street kids.
We open the Saturday Night Worship to the community, so that we can all worship
our God together. It is one of my favorite times with the street kids, most who
we have built relationships with during the week at our feeding programs.
|
Tasha & Luciana |
To paint a picture, the
distance between each tent is just enough to walk through. It is a small
pathway, but its not even enough width for two people to walk side by side.
Some tents are bigger than others, but there is a family of at least 4 or 5 in
each one, most have more, such as a common family of 7. Lucley brought us into
her tent, which consists of a tarp all the way around 4 sticks and another tarp
across the top. Her door was made of tin and had a wooden stick on the inside
to slide it closed to give them some sort of feeling secure, when really there
is nothing safe about it.
Mona, Luciana, Tasha |
At that point I was just
trying to process the fact that in this little square of a tent there was one
makeshift cot, one table with all their belongings and a sheet to separate the
room and the sitting area. There are at least 4 people living in that tent,
which probably means they all sleep in the dirt on the floor.
Luciana |
Eddlie, Jeff, Me, Dupren, Rachel, Kellens, Peterson |
There is also a pack of
teenage boys that call themselves the street boys and have a secret handshake (that
they so proudly have shared with us). A few of them are Sonson, Peterson,
Jivenson, Jeff, Yvell, Kellens, Dupren, Edlie, Ledell and Jaytwoh, who we see
everyday hanging out in front of our gate. My life just wouldn’t be the same
with out them. They started this saying, “not today, cherie…” just to be funny,
like when we say get over here and give me a big hug, of course their response
is, “not today, cherie…” while all of them laugh, but really they cant wait to
get a big hug from us each day. We were making a joke about how all Haitians
love Sean Paul and Akon and somehow it came out Sean John (Puff Daddy’s
clothing line)… which then it turned into, “not today, Sean John…” Please enjoy
this video of Sonson and then Jivenson and Sonson rapping about who knows what…
We love these boys so much it’s
hard to even begin how to describe them to you. But they have touched our
hearts in ways no other kids can. They wait for us outside our house everyday,
they call us by name and yell from the top of the street, “ME LOVE YOU SO
MUCHHHHHH” in their Creole accents, and they walk us to work in the mornings
telling us that they are our security guards and that they are here to protect
us. As tough as they try to be, we know they are just dying for love. We are
overjoyed to be a vessel for God’s love to them as we continue to teach them
about Jesus and how He is our ultimate comforter. A few of them come to church
with us every Sunday, and some are making jewelry with the pastor’s wife to
make a little extra cash for their family to eat.
Jeff and his beautiful cousin |
These boys roam the streets
night and day because they don’t have money to barely eat so they definitely
don’t have any to go to school, so they joined together and are the street
boys. They desperately need prayer because these streets are rough. They think
they are tough and they are all prone to get in fights growing up and seeing so
much crime. We pray that the love of God transforms their minds and their past’s
wont shape who they are, but Jesus will. I am sure their situations seem
hopeless at times, but we pray that Jesus would be their hope in this desperate
time. God loves each one of them so deeply and we just pray He leads us in
ways of showing them just how full Gods love is for them. A few of them have
now been sponsored to go to school, which is a huge blessing but a long road
starting school in their early/mid teens.
Then there are the babies. I
will have to write another post about his one, but all I can say is the babies
who call out our names while RUNNING full force towards you just to leap into
your arms… well…. It just melts your heart. It’s the best feeling in the world,
really. They get smothered with kisses, and they know just what’s coming when
they jump in these arms.
Nancy, Angline, Diana, Milanda, Ganiva, Guerson, Stevenson |
“Listen, my beloved brothers, has not God chosen those who are poor in the world to be rich in faith and heirs of the kingdom, which he has promised to those who love him?” – James 2:5
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